i think that the truth is im scared

i know i was frustrated with you, and i really am super sorry. i didnt mean to im just really short tempered. i just dont understand. i guess a fallback of being young eh?? but after our conversation, ive just come to realize that i dont know if i am ready to be independant. i mean ive been dependent my whole life. but i guess i just need to be reminded of why im doing this. im getting a job because i dont want to have myparents worry about me any more. i dont want to burden them with MY rent or MY school. i mean i know that theyll always be there to help me, but its getting harder on the family. i dont want them worrying about me any more, theyve done so much for me already. im just scared. i mean, i dont know if im gonna be good at working or if i can handle working and class at the same time. not to mention paying my own rent, buying my own food. i mean REALLY being on my own. i dont know if i can do it, but i guess i have to think positively. i know that if i fall that you'll be there to catch me, but i dont want to fall. i mean one of my fears is failure....and thats just what it is me being scared of failing. but thats apart of life, you do something wrong, learn from it, and try again. i just have to learn that thats life. oh man im gonna be doing some serious growing up to do cause i know when i go back to vegas i wont be very independent anymore, i dunno we shall see